sophia梦幻菱: November 2009

please let me go

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I hated to be someone that always incharge for everything

i hated to be alone and i hated the feeling of boring always come to me

after i meet him,i increase my contact with all my friend

my life become suck and bad like shit

i dunt know want to tell who!iam feel very sad..

and i wish i got ,so that i can forget all my memories with him

his thinking very naive and not mature at all

why everbody will fall in love?

because they love each other and feel like want to protect their partner

and when they need each other they will always in their side

care abt each other feeling and care about everything

not only know how to say I lOVE U

have to learn how to love a person

sometime iam feel like his nanny,not girlfriend

i take care for his everything~

like am a 24hour nanny~

he only to ask me do this and do that

but dint feel what iam feel

like i have to follow what he want,and i hated him

even we love each other,SO WHAT!!!!!

but feel agony all the time,better separated

i wish that all the time~but cant reach my goal now

i say i want to stay alone and dunt want stay with him

but he dont want~i feel suck all the time,pain~and weak~

i want cry and want to talk to somebody but dunt know can talk with who

even talk to him abt my feeling

like am talk to a macho man~suck like shit

am not the girl who always can follow what u want and ur order

if who love me,they cant control me do from what i want

espeacialy macho man

if they behave like this,this will make me feel like want to run

far away from them~and disappear~

god bless with what am wish

of course am still love him~but i cant continue this relationship

if not i cant breath with his way

i surrender~and please me go~

holiday^^

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Today is public holiday

when iam wake up he still dint come back

when am wake up is around 8am~

am dint call him or bother~hoho~he got his privacy mar

actually i want to sleep more longer today

because very long time cant sleep like today

but awake because of my friend call at 8am like this

then we chat outside the door for a while

after he go~i cant sleep anymore~

lol~such a bad started day for me

but anyway wait for afternoon dating time^^haha

because he say he will bring me go cinema today

what can do when i cant continue sleep is become kaki facebook lor

haha~check mail and online to my forum~

erm~about around 9am i heard a door open sound

at last~he come back~hoho

lol~after he come back he come to my side and say

"dear,yesterday i go cafe play online game with aaron"

then he smile like nothing happened~

make me dunt know want smile or cried~>.<"

but anyway so funny la when he show the face reaction

then i ask him go to sleep,if not when watch movie in cinema

i scared that he will asleep

he ask me awake him on 10am~but i dint do it..

i let him sleep,because too short time for him to sleep..

let him take a rest to charge his energy

coz of yesterday work by hard play online game

lol~not good for health

then after he go sleep..i continue online and movieING

haha~such a good and enjoy day for me^^wahoho~

around 1 pm like this i call him wake up and ready

den we go klcc^^hehe~our dating moment^^

we go chili and eat lunch there...haha~

long time dunt have feel like this^^

and he teach me how to eat beef,because i never eat beef

i hated beef because so disgusting

but the way they cook in chili,hoh~delicious~100%

i like it~i like chili way cook the beef

and thank him for teached me eat the disgusting beef^^haha

then we go watch twilight

this time this movie make me feel boring

no fresh at all~but the heroin is very handsome and charming^^

twilight 1 is more romantic and good watch^^

after finish watch we go back~

even dating time not longer but am happy^^

and this is a good memory for me~

hei~dear,thak yea^^

my new week

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My new week in company to become a telemarketer

yeah~have a good result today

my back of office got a new look

got many place for new staff

but new staff dint come yet,coz all still in training or not start yet

all kosong~lol~

hahaha~only got 5 or 6 little kitty~hahhaa

and joseph department there boss dint sentuh anything yet

and one more thing my place there

boss dint tutup a "dinding" between me and my friend

so we can keep talking when work~haha

so bising when work~but anyway we do our job when talked

hahaha~happy lol~hope boss wont tutup a dinding between us lo~

if not we all will feel boring d lo~

and all the staff terkejut when know my result

coz n few day my sell can reach their standard

hehe~iam sophia what!hahaha~
anyway i will keep this result and better than them

god blessed!

dream from yesterday night

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Can't remember all what iam dreamed yesterday

but remember a little bit only

somebody bring me go to church

and then sign in there

i dunt know sign in what

there was a big church,and the person who bring me there is joseph

and i see many people singing on that time

joseph give something to the paderi there

i dont know what~

very very blur~~~~~lol

and~we go inside the church then sit there

and then i waked up~

actually before this dream iam also dream something

but i dont know what~

i think something like~~erm~~~not remember~

very blur~erm~dont know how to say that feeling

the feeling only i know

whatever~dream is dream!and me is me~lol~

刚才check到的~lol

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Sophia Ling 剛用 [麥玲玲分析你2010年虎年運程] 分析了 [苏奎伶]!

結果是:

1:74% : 犯本命年謹慎為重，健康與人際不穩定！

2:12% : 文昌拱照讀書運強，將星帶動升職在望！

3:6% : 財運來自辛勞工作，指背作祟提防小人！

4:4% : 太歲相合變化不斷，貴人相助才華展現！

5:3% : 吉星絕跡財運遜色，凶星臨門雪上加霜！

6:1% : 女貴人相助運勢強，感情糾纏理智處理！

yea~this is my result for next year luck~

lol~so bad~

haha~anyway,i only believe myself

HOHO~~~

coz whatever happen to us in future is depend what we choice

and what we do or what step we take

if u work by hard,then u will have a good life

if u lazy and just surrender with what they count for u,then u will die very fast

hahaha~coz u only follow what they count for u

future is urs,NOT otherssss~~~

so u have to choice what u want

then u already walk first step for ur luck

GooD LuCK evryBody and May God BleSS u All..MUACK~

Hana wa kaze ni yureodoru you ni
Ame wa daichi wo uruosu you ni
Kono sekai wa yorisoiai ikiteru no ni
Naze hito wa kizutsukeau no?
Naze wakare wa otozureru no?

Kimi ga tooku ni itte mo mada
Itsumo kono kokoro no man'naka
Ano yasashii egao de umetsukusareta mama
Dakishimeta kimi no kakera ni
Itami kanjite mo mada
Tsunagaru kara
Shinjiteru yo
Mata aeru to
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
Futari dakara shinjiaeru no
Hanasanaide

Sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no?
Tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no?
Ima wa kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
Shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii
Sono sakimi hikari ga matsu kara

Kimi ga oshiete kureta uta wa
Ima mo kono kokoro no man'naka
Ano yasashii koe to tomo ni hibiiteru
Afureru kimochi no shizuku ga
Atatakaku hoho tsutau
Tsuyoku naru ne
Shinjiteru yo
Tsunagatteru to
Im always by your side

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga
I love you, I trust you
Ai wo oshiete kureta
Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte mo
Soba ni iru yo

Waiting for your love
Always by your side
Youre the one that I love
Youre the one that I trust
Youre the only one

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
Kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
Kimi no subete wo mamoritai

Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte mo
Soba ni iru yo
Futari dakara shinjiaeru no
Hanasanaide

everything already change

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Everything already change in slowly with what she wish

and she hope something that she hope will happen soon

she want go away from a ghost place

she want go away from a suffer place

she want run away from a relation

she dont want lonely everyday and wait for nothing

she want stand by herself

she dont want cry all the time

she dont want leave her family because of him

because after she know him,she not always back home

she dont want when he need her only find her

she dont lke he treat her when need her then only at her side

she is a talkative girl when she were in secondary school

she is a active girl when in secondary school

but after meet him,her life change

change become unhappy life

from that moment she meet him

she missing her smile

not active like before

quiet and always show the mad face

this is her now

she want run away from all this unhappy life

now she on plan want to make everything become normal

and alone go to her own journey

she want happy,freedom,single and success life

hope what she wish will become true as fast

all the friend outside,please bless for her

she will very thankful~~thankful~million thank for it

write for my secreat friend,XXX

Regard,

sophia

2 different feeling

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Two different feeling face today

first feeling is happy when work in my new office

i have very good result until they feel suprise

because iam new there,but can do better than them

hem~the feeling ar~very very good lor~nice~

happy and make me got heart to continue work there

haha~iam feel proud~lol~

then the second feeling tht iam face today is

like usual lor~~i hated someone

and i remember a few world that my first bf tell me

even we already separated,but we still friend~

a very good friend~and he advice me all the time

i dont like who always make me cry all the time

the feel was so bad and suffer

like what all my friend say

短痛不如长痛！！

then after his life stable and finish advice him

then i will go for my own journey

even i love him~but iam not suitable for him

we are different world men

second day iam work in company

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Today is my second day work in office~

hahaha~a office girl~dint think before will become a part of it

at last~the thing i dont want happened

because i dont like work with others

i like work myself~anyway after i work for this job

erm~~the feeling~~erm~~qt good~

i like the environment,they treat me very good

and they so friendly,when i need help they will help me

hem~feel savety when work with this company

they give me offer letter and got all the company profile

very good system~
not like stubit jason hee jee ping company

no offer letter or salary slip at all~lol~~~

if compare~~smart stubit is "0"mark i give them

hem~cannot say like this~have to say cannot compare at all

because stubit jason hee jee pin company was a shit and no systematic company~
lol~~somemore they want you go to kuantan take ur own salary

lol~such a "GOOD BOSS"and "GOOD COMPANY"lol~

i love my job now~basic is rm3000~high leh??hahaha

coz i got the qualified mar~hahaha~

and time also flexible~because is start from 9am to 6pm only

at night can do my own thing

and at weekend can go for class~perfect~
haiz~why not early find this job leh??

if not now i no need all the stubit time job jor lor~

anyway i happy with my time now~

more stable jor~

what i have to do is,joseph ask me move to genting klang

so that when work can more easy go work,no need take bus and save

ok~i will find~then only make decision~

a good started for me~

gambadek yea sophia^^

thank for who alway at my side~love yea

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Today i wake up around 11am~

and i go interview at genting klang as telemarketing

yeah~~~everything going very smooth

the boss give me RM3000 for my basic salary

a good started for me^^

at night i will go sing as part time

i join a singer group now

but now iam in hard situation

because the 2 leader want me stay me their own group

Which leader i have to follow??

haiz~lazy to think~

what i have to do now is just finish my duty as a singer

they give me RM100 basic for 1 day and only sing 4 to 6 song

time qt short~ok lar~i will go sing

i love sing and iam only do this job for fun

and get some experienced on stage~

and i will go join one in a million next year

from here i treat as practice~PERFECT~haha

anyway i only do what i want

and i plan when dint work on saturday and sunday

i will go take a part time course,so that i wont waste my time in doing stubit thing

haha~of course i will take my favourite guitar course

i want to finish the course~because i love write song,den i have to use guitar

have too~and i dunt want regretful when iam become old

life is a wonderful life,very fantastic,so we have to do whatever we like

i wont bother people say iam stubborn

because iam only want to be myself

and i know what iam doing

iam happy with the result iam achieved today

even thought sometime iam failed,but iam learn from wrong

and when the next step i will become more stronger

cheers for guys who always support me here

thank for comforted and advice that u guys give me when iam down

thank yea guys^^cheerssssss~~

TAKE A REST AND CONTINUE TOMORROW LIFE

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A tired day for me

yesterday sleep around 4 to 5 am~

then wake at about 7.30am like this

only sleep for 2 hour and half hour~

no time to eat then rush to mid valley and work

today no mood to work coz not much guest are coming in that exhibition

and what iam always do today is only

going around and chit chat with other friend

hahaha...qt happy but tired

the way iam make my tired missing iam always smile and talk talk talk

so that i wont feel sleepy

hahaha~~a good madison for me~

iam feel not tired and can continue work

but today cant get any sell,so hard to get it

but i already try my best...what can i do is continue talk and find customer

yea~at last my last roadshow customer find me back and say will sign for me

tomorrow~~hahaha...yea...is tomorrow~~not today

OK!!I will wait for my dear customer~

hope they will really come back for me tomorrow^^

anyway thank for them give me some hope~love yea^^

i can do it~i can fight for my target

i will reach it~coz iam always can do it~hahaha

this is me^^sophia~

i want to be a perfect sophia all the time,but cant make it sometime

but i know 1 thing that i already try it

if filed i will try and try and try to make me more better then before

i know this was a hard process in my life..but i have to face it

today i get "0" sale in my exhibition roadshow

but i know tomorrow i wont coz i know reach my target

i know from deep inside my heart

I KnOw it very well~haha

and later after take a comfortable bath i will have a good sleep and wonderful dream

and continue my journey tomorrow

coz tomorrow is my lucky day^^

gambadek yea sophia^^

sweet dream everybody^^

pain~~~

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Tonight is a very super long night for me.

sleep at around 10.30pm~

suddenly wake up~cant sleep because of my gastric

lol~~pain~~~very pain~~~

what can do is only drink water~~

keep drink~~~keep drink~~
so that my gastric will missing~~

fast fast go away~~please~~i want sleep~~

tomorrow i got job~~

if not i dunt have energy to work~~

WHAT IS FAMILY?

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A family is one of the nicest thing you can have

and one of the best thing you can be.

A family is the one who will always be beside you,

through all the laughter,and through each and every tear.

A family is the one thing you can always rely on

the someone you can always open up to.

A family is sanctuary

A family is a smile

A family is a hand

that is always holding yours,

no matter where you are.

A family is a feeling of forever in the heart.

Today IS MY DAY

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Today is my day

i dunt want anyone disturb me today

i only want enjoy for 1 day and give myself a space to breath

yesterday i know a new friend

and we chat for 1 whole night

she is a lesbian..but i dont care..i love talk with her

her thinking same like me

erm..why she become lesbian?

actually the story are very long

and a secreat between me and her

all is start from suck guy~~just know how to make girl feel sad and change

when iam talk with her..she say iam feel not save

how she know???iam shock..she say she know with just feel it

i respect her because her thinking are mature and very clear

i dint blame her as a lesbian but happy to be her friend

so that got someone know me very well and talk we me

at last we give each other hp no to keep in touch

but have something..she say she like me

and she that feel ~~but i dint scared..coz i know this is a normal thing

for now a day..we cant blame them...coz this got reason why they become like this

and what are duty is be their friend and change their mind

anyway sha sha~iam happy to be your friend^^

LIFE IS FLIMSINESS

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Our life like a bean very fragile

can survive when got sun

once failing a havey fainfall~~his survive chance will thus wind up

same like us(human)..dunt know when we will leave from this world

everything will come very suddenly

when think about it iam feel very afraid

cant count what will happen tomorrow

just can cherish what we have now especially love that we have now

materialistic was the rest of our life

life was not belong to us

we just a cell of universe

when he want take back thing that belong to him

WE CANT STOP IT

what we can do is only INSTATE

U will always in my memorie

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Last two day i got a news from my friend

my secondary classmate pass away when come back from clubbing

iam feel so shock when heard this news from my friens d

iam feel sad for him~~

too early for him~~~too young~~why leave us that early~~

u just graduated~~u still got many thing dint finish yet~~

WHY??WHY???

even i asked why also no use already~~

he leaved us already~~far from us now~~

although i cant attend your funeral~~but my heart still have u~~my friend

hope u leaved in peace~~we all pray for u my dear friend~~

U always in our memory!!We always with u

leaved in peace my friend~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This 3 day

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hai guys..

this 3 day my life was so quiet and boring all the time

and i no mood to do other thing

beside go back to my own home

i miss my home and i hated all the thing happen in kl

the moment i meet him

all the before and after i hated it so so so so so much

anyway i will run away someday

depress!!!!depress when with him

now got that feeling and i hated him

and i have to settle all this thing by myself and just wait for time

NOW my brain was empty!!sry guy!!

i know u all care about me but iam juz quiet

really sorry abt that..iam really vry bz this few week

and no time to write blog

anyway...i love u all guys and thx for care abt me^^

sophia梦幻菱

please let me go

holiday^^

my new week

dream from yesterday night

刚才check到的~lol

Trust you song lyric

everything already change

2 different feeling

second day iam work in company

thank for who alway at my side~love yea

TAKE A REST AND CONTINUE TOMORROW LIFE

pain~~~

WHAT IS FAMILY?

Today IS MY DAY

LIFE IS FLIMSINESS

U will always in my memorie

This 3 day

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