sophia梦幻菱: May 2010

Our last stop

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Hei..friend...

Am really appreciated u guys always updated my blog

and care for me..

Million thank yea guys..hehe..

But please la...dont call me when am working

Because am bzING with my work...

Erm...actually am not sad with my job..

I happy with it..

everyday am busy doing something..

At least i got thing to do lor...

Wont always sit at home like sho po..hahaha

Not i dont have direction..

Just because deep inside my heart still cannot let it go last time

Now slowly let it go liao

and thank to u guys because accompany me whole night

and listen what am talk,and let me cry until become panda

Sry,can answer u guys phone today

Hope u guys understand my situation now

I want to make myself bz............bz...........

work hard for my life

Thank to u guys again because accompany me when am confuse

confuse to face him,and confuse for everything la...

Think about last time am gila for him..

Think back feel myself really stubit and childish la..

will because of him..am.....

Anyway,am agree with what u guys advice me..

even though deeply deeply inside my heart feel still got something v him

but u guys are right...

I have to let it go,to choose a better life..

No use i just stand here and become the same or become more worst.

Love cant feed u eat..time wont wait for u and alert u said:

"hei...stop dreaming...a better future is waiting for u."

yea..time wont wait u...And i have to rush back the time that am throw away..

And find it back...

Stop dreaming....

I wont treat it as lesson..

I will treat it as my good memories with him

When the moment with him...even though i know it was hard..

But when am see his face..Am feel sweet and happy.

Remember that he always tolerated with my stubit bad temper..

He just quiet...But he is stubit..because sometime he cant catch what am try to tell him

But the sad thing was~~

He dont know what am already do for him

He just know how to blame and perli me..

and am sad everytime and just put it in my heart until am treat him the same way

By the way...

The fade said...our last stop is until here.

Just make it as my memories...

I become myself

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Recently am work in a american company in BANGSAR.

My job scope is take order customer through call

They will call in and am just help them to take order

either i just sit there and help them to settle their problem

erm...it qt busy....until i dont have time to drink water...

but the situation make me change

of course happy la...got a group of good friend..

better den sit at home and face his stubit face before this..

make my mood all the time become bad,unhappy,crazy.

After am work with this company.

My life become peaceful..

i smile everyday with a group of my friend.

At least i know without him am also can survive.

before this i tot i cnt..

but time will let it go slowly..

Just now he come bck very suddenly

and am shock....feel very uncomfortable

when see his face...

Got a very negative vibrate make my whole person become moody

In slowly am get out from his life...

In slowly i can survive without him

In slowly i brave chose what i want

In slowly i forget him

In slowly my feeling to him become zero...

In slowly i wont cry because of him

In slowly i become myself.

Normal day for me

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erm~good morning for me

Am take a bath and prepared going out for meet my friend in KLCC

When am on the way go take LRT..

I received a phone call from my friend

He tell me that he suddenly got thing to do..

Then what can i do is go myself..

hahah~maybe this is a good moment for me to relax alone

Alone take LRT to KLCC~

The feeling was so good~

Long time dint relax like today

After reach there,am received a phone call again...

Jonathan~he said he in kl

So i buy 2 ticket and we go watch nightmare on xxxroad

hahahah~the movie was so scaryyyyy~~~~X.x

HAhahaha..buy ticket to scared myself

hahah~so funny la..

The most funny thing was

His hand so pain because of me~~~hahaha

After finish movie~~

He ask me go eat...but am not feel like want eat..

even am dint take breakfast yea..

Feel tired in the same time..

Den he accompany me go post office..

But am forgot that today is sunday

so post office dint open~

After he wait me go in LRT only back~

hem~

Normal day for me~

but am feel tired...

sleep after reach home..

prepareING to face next morning~~

Love you so much!

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Suddenly got someone knock my door

and said my parent reach already

Hahahha...my lovely mom and dad~~muack~muack~

Miss you both so much!!

After a while my dad fetch us to lrt..

We go KLCC together,then we have a texi to auntie jady house

After reach there auntie Jady invite us eat nasi lemak that cooked by her worker

wow~DELICIOUS!!!really delicious!!!

After that we go KLCC again~

we fourperson sit down and chat chat chat

chat until forgot time~lolzzzz~~~women what~hahaahah

Then when reach around 7pm~

we go eat sushi up stair..

UNTIL my stomach full~~~

lol~~~hahahaa..

like got boom inside my stomach...

But we still chat la even we are eating

we laugh laugh laugh...eat eat eat...talk talk talk..

NONSTOP！！！！

hahahaha...funny and happy moment for us...

No willing to go back home...

hem~but have too~~~

Then when before we go back wangsa maju

We both hug mummy and feel sad

hem~mom we love u so much~

Today the most thing make both of us feel pain was

when u want close the car,uncareful you pinch your hand and

when the moment when u feel very pain

deep inside our heart we also feel very pain too

worried your hand very much

but you said...dont worried..dont worried...

mom~we really love you!!love you so much!!

Too tired~.~

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This few day am change alot to make everything to become normal as usual

I try to don't want criticism him

And i try to treat him good~

but..this time my heart really 100% broke because of him

Last time am tried to give him chance even i know am was so hurt so hurt

But this time don't know why am no dare

to face him anymore

even am see his eye and face

am already really really~~~

The feeling was so hard to explained

This morning when am open facebook

am realize that last night he open my facebook

Is ok for me..

But the second time am open my facebook today

Am realize that he edit my relation status to empty

For the beginning i dint think too much and change back to "in a relationship"

But after i go to his profile..

Am heart was shock for a while..

because the status that he put~~

yea...he change my profile status before..

And~b.r.o.k.e

In deeply am cry...

Even when we are starting this relationship

he already the same

If don't want just say don't want..

Dint hurt me in quietly

Am so hurt~

Not i want always vexatious

But this feeling is come from deep inside my hard

The feeling was so sour and pain

And this time,the pain was over my limit

And this time..no..from this moment

I wont disturb him anymore..re..a..lly~

I want to stop this tired game

I tried to change to be who u like

But before this u dont want to let me go..

even now...

The feeling like~

Am blur..

For a while feel happy,for a while feel sad

I know a relationship have both of us to maintain

but just treat that is me cant continue it

I just need a simple guy who can protect and love me very well

Am really tired with u~

Really tired

If u really love me,den let me go~

习惯了

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习惯了你不再我的身边

习惯了不再打电话给你

习惯了不再信息你问你在做什么

习惯了不再想你

习惯了一切的东西都一人行

习惯了没有你拥抱我而觉得怀念

全都习惯了

曾现在习惯了对你的变化

我要赶快抽身到一个属于我的世界

不然就会来不及的跌入陷阱

觉得在身边而感到烦，厌倦的感觉慢慢产生了

我不想再看见你的脸出现在我的面前

恨不得把你踢得远远的

要不然就我走的远远的

这样大家都会活得自在

不会有被烦的感觉

不会再有anti对方的感觉

也不会在有对方存在的感觉

今晚你陪我，安慰了我整个晚上

我收到了你要给我的信息

谢谢你请我那一顿美味的晚餐

谢谢你对我的八年专一

对不起我对你还不能接受

更谢谢你的就是，我伤心难过的时候

你是第一个人出现在我的身边陪我

他给不到的安全感你却默默的献给我

你说得对

我已慢慢习惯没有他的世界了~

sorry for leave you

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Something that i cant put down for this moment

and am feel very confuse with my thinking for all this time

but after 3 week ago...something let me know that

am no need because of this thing and wait

no worth~

and when am face with this thing

Am feel disheartened

even still got feeling with this inexplicably feel

but something deep inside my heart said

stop it!and just stop it!

1 week ago...even my heart ask me stop..

don't do it...and i try to think that what am feel is wrong

and am try to try to make my thinking that he is good

In quietly am give up

In quietly am realize that

we are still young to been together

I cant wait u and just sit here everyday and hope u will be change

I don't want to make trouble in you

u are stopping me from achieve my dream

we got different thinking

Now~

my life chance is coming

Chance only one time in life,dont have second chance

before this i give up everything and listen what u teach me

but after that am know am wrong~

am cannot wait u and be a normal people like you

From am small am work by hard for my dream

cannot because of u am just stop it

If am just stop achieve my dream

that mean am fool

so this time,i will throw off all my feeling and focus in my carer

after this whatever u say

am just will listen..but wont put inside my heart

because

i choice my singging carer and not you!

U have listen to ur parent advice and change yourself

if not u will be a loser in whole life

Last i want to say that:

My heart still love you

But your mind is not suitable for me

I cant follow what u teach me

I know am leave you am will feel very sad

but i have to continue it

because we are from different world

I wish that someday u can find a better partner in your life

and wish all your family member healthy always

God will bless all of you all the time

Sorry for leave you~

Dont regret after you mist it

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Just follow your your heart

Dont regret if miss it

People always regret after thing happened,

Because they dun't know how to appreciated

Before this am always blame blame blame

Everything happened i just know how to blame

But dint think how to solve it

I thought that everything happened is because of others people

But i dint think that some of the reason is come from me

I just know cry when thing are happen

When am think back am feel very shame of myself and feel very wasting my time

on all that blaming

Why i should cry for thing already happened?

Why i should blame for thing already happened?

Is that wasting time....

Why dun't am think how to face it and solve the problem?

Why dun't am become more brave to all this problem?

This is call life...

Such as a homework for us..

We have to learn how to face our life

not run from life...

We have to appreciated everything that already happened to us..

Because all the thing that already happened on us

was a FREE LESSON for us...

I know i am too young to say all this thing

But i know it was a good thinking from me

at least i realize earlier den others that same age with me

Am still got time to learn what is life

And learn how to learn from wrong

Many people said that i am too young to face all this problem

Yea...It right....

But u guys have to know one thing!!

Because when you just want started step to real world and work for ur life

I already have my stable carer and already have what i want

because when u are enjoying in your college moment

In the same time,i am building my life and carer

As what i know many people nowadays

After they finish their college or university

I ask them,"so after finish your college/university,what u gonna to plan for your life?"

I ask them...

You know what most of them answer me????

lolx....Am was so shock with their answer....

They answer me..."erm..Dont know yet...see first lor"

Lolxxxxx.....SEE FIRST LOR.....????

What a good answer!!!
hem~~~~~as i know they only know how to waste their parent money

not go college for study...

but go college/university for enjoying their life there

hem...student nowadays really toooooo happiness!!!

Toooooooooooo enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....

Am so jealous....

But deep in side my heart said

"see u guys can enjoy until when???!!""

Not i want scold or what...

Remember my mom tell me

Last time if they want go college or university

Result have to straight A or

only for certain student that selected

But now~~~~~~~

Haiz......result like rubbish also can go to any college/university

until make our standard level education become "DUH"....

erm...what can say...

One word..."LOW LEVEL"

After they finish their education in

"GOOD QUALITY" college...

what they do????

80% dont know what can do...

15% no plan...

4% sit in office

1% SUCCESS!!!(CONGRATULATION!!)

Hem...my impression now is

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

休闲等于更忙

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休闲的做自己想要要做的事

没有城市的日子，感觉轻松多了

但病却好像便多了

应该是前阵子没休息好吧

每天只顾着工作~没停过脚步休息吧~

一停下来，身体立刻变弱~变得好像要生病一样

这里痛，那里痛

但不会因此~回到故乡的我停下我的工作

我还是的继续找agent~继续的的follow我的顾客

奇怪的是~当我随随便便做的时候

做的成果比平时来得多~

在一天之内可以找到十多个agent以上

真的好神奇哦~

我看这个星期我有排忙了~

以为能休闲一阵子

可是没想到工作量好像变得更多

没关系~要加油哦！

sophia梦幻菱

Our last stop

I become myself

Normal day for me

Love you so much!

Too tired~.~

习惯了

sorry for leave you

Dont regret after you mist it

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