sophia梦幻菱

we talk about life What is life?

i tel her what iam faceING in this few month

i talk about the relationship problem that iam faceING...

In life we will meet someone that we love and will be together forever

but not every relation that we meet will going smooth..

very hard to maintain a relationship after we find it

what she told me was in their country once they find they partner in life

they will get marriage fast...they say just take love as a easy thing dont treat as complicated thing

but for me is very complicated...iam dont have their thinking and i got my own thinking

i dont like control by other..i don't want impulse and then make mistake in life

i tell her actually i want separated with my boyfriend..and he go his way and i go my way

so that we wont stop each other future to development..and we got each other family problem in our relationship.make me feel sad all the time and i am beg to separated all the time in this few month with him..but he not agree and wont listen what iam beg and treat nothing happen..very sturborn..make me always in hard situation all the time..sara told me that if love him just go on..dont stop..dont bother other people thinking..

yea..i know i love him..we love each other very much..but we still on this relationship

thinking not that that mature and financial also not stable yet...

but no matter what i tell him about my opinion..he wont listen....HAIZ~~~

sometime i feel that he think something very easy...dint think further..and dont know people are worried about him...hard to talk to him...sometime advice him until iam feel almost vomit blood..

but who know what iam doing???they say iam to women and think about future..

yea.. his friend told me like that..is that wrong iam think about future???

we have to improve and more success in life...not just stop here!!!

no meaning...waste time if just spent time in relationship...

after life are stable then only think...den wont worried about life..THIS IS WHAT I WANT!!

i love him...so that i hope him will be good in his future and got a mature thinking..

i tried talk to him many time..but we both are sturborn men..we got different opinion..

like fire and water...and he strong macho man thinking..lol...very hard when talk to him...anyway i hope someday our future will like blue sky that blue and bright always...huh!!!

yesterday night his body very heated

very very very heated...very suddenly!

yea...he had a fever...he feel like want vomit always!!

hem...what can do???i attend to him in the whole night!!

this morning still the same...

his body still heated..

i go buy some medicine let him eat..

ask him go to take a bath so that the heated will gone...

like baby...press him up...haiz..he was so lazy...

at last in he go take a bath...

then drink some milo..coz he dont have appetite to eat

then he go to sleep again...

lucky after he take the bath..now his situation get better...

his body temperature become normal abit now..

hope him can get well soon.

may god bless him

From the year are beginning iam learn many thing in many place

learn many thing in different thing that happened to me before

no matter work or relationship

it was a lesson for me and i it learn very well

but got many thing that i have to learn also such as

and the most important thing that i learned is

like before this i was talkertive and active when meet my friend

even i see the people i dunt know iam also like this

and that time when even my friend who juz know each other not longer

want me help and i borrow money to him about rm400++

in the morning i go and bank in to him

he promise me will give back to me next week from the day iam borrow him

he delay and delay....and 5 month pass away..

he missing...and i only can find him in facebook

but he dint reply me any message that i message him

hem~~~yea...what iam learned is if talking about money

DUNT SIMPLY BORROW TO OTHERS

because now is 21 century..world are complicated..

including human being...not alls will honest to you...

what you do they dunt know...most of them are selfish

Now included me...i wont simply belive people outside...

what iam doing now is for my life and my future...

nobody is honest now..even if we trust them...

so what can do is dunt care about them accept my family

Family have to put in NO 1..

no them no me...and in this life only my family will give me advice and guided

not outside people..NO EVEN 1..

I still remember what my mom tell me

i think very deeply~~~i choose happy and good life..

and i tell my mom what iam choose

and then she tell me...

iam glad got parent like this..they understand me..

dint force me and let me choose for what i want in life..

even iam wrong sometime they dint give up and dint failed me even once.

cause my mom say she want me learn from real world

because when she are young she dunt have understanding parent

my grandfather always scold her and put her in hard situation reason for her own good

cannot do this cannot do that...even the course that she choose in college

decision also not in her hand...life like not belong to her..arrange by parent

dint even think about her feeling..make her sad always and make her life got many regret

so now she dunt want the same thing happen to us

she dunt want her children like her...she want us choose for our life..

want us learn to responsibility with the life that we choose

want us to be understanding person

want us to be independent

she treat us like friend and teach us what is wrong and what is right

she always sit with us and talk with us...like friend...very happy and comfartable^^

so that i with all my sibling already know what we want in life and

work for it from we are still small

she let us got dream and goal in life

we agree that she is a 100 percent a good mother

the more success thing that she already done was she already define her children

because the way that she talk to us and teach us..

whatever she teach us we will say YES and AGREE

yesterday i suddenly got a phone from my mom

and tell me that

sophia....JOSEPH DAD CALL ME JUST NOW

and say that because of me..

he always dint go home and dunt want continue his study..

and from what iam know from my mom is

in joseph dad eye iam a stubborn person..

when iam heard all that thing from my mom i was very sad about it..

and blog is a place that i can grievances

actually i start know him from february

yea...that time we are working together in GA company..

that time we and other 4 of our friend was circumvention with a lye from a girl

who worked with us in GA company that time...

we was been cheated by the company and they dint give us salary..

about what happened in that company very hard to say in here..

because that was a long story..............

and after that what all our worked for the company was for naught

The girl who call jia jia that circumvention us actually is my room mate

but after this cases iam feel nausea to stay with her

what on my brain that time just thinkING

why she want treated us like this?????

I TRUST HER VERY MUCH!!!

but WHY???????

i feel very disappointed for her....really disappointed...

from this matter i learn that i cant believe someone that easily

after that i move from the place that iam stayING with her that time..

and my manager ask me stay in his model hostel there...

actually they already prepared a room for me very early...

but i say i want work to take some experienced outside first..

then i say i want stay outside for a while when i worked in GA company..

but that time when i moved from hostel that i stayed with jia jia..

was too lated already...but on that time joseph ask me stayed at his house for a while first..

i say i dont want...because inconvenient..

and other reason is i dont like stay in other people house...

because they got family...they got their privacy...

actually who like stay in other people house????

of course iam also dunt like...but on that night...

joseph all along say too lated already...never mind..just stay in his house for a while...

he say his family is okey...because we just a friend..never mind...

NEVER MIND!!!!NEVER MIND!!!!!this is what he tell me

then what iam think that time is

:''yea...i think his family is ok and too lated already to move to my model hostel there."

then i move all my thing to joseph there first....

when they move my thing to his house on that night..

oop~~~~his family is prayING that time....

oh my god....iam very embarrassment that time!!!!!!

and i tell joseph!!!but him!!!MAKE NOTHING OF!!

actually what unlucky thing that happened on me in GA..

i dint tell my mom at all...i dunt want let her worried about me...

i already grown up...and i have to settle it myself...

eventhought iam sad...and cry for many time in quiet...

from iam graduated in high school and step into this real world..

then i only know what is life!!it very hard!!!but it was a good lesson for me..

IAM IN CLASS FOR REAL WORLD AND

IAM LEARN MANY IN THIS REAL WORLD!!

continue when iam lived in joseph house...

iam always in the room because iam really embarrassment with his family..

what iam feel is because iam make them no privacy...

and what can i do is hurry up move from joseh house...

but no car was hard to move too many of my thing...

HAI~~~~what can do is ask for my friend who got car and

help me to move all my thing in short time..

between arrange all the thing iam also find a freelance job in asia part time...

so that i wont that lame in just sit there for nothing..

at last find a job from SMART NETWORK MARKETING!!!

from that day~~~nightmare starrrrrrrrrrttttttttttt~~~~~

really a night mare for all of us who worked with that stupid company that time!!!

the boss of that company name is jason hee jee pin...

when interview he promise us in many thing..

arrange us this and that...and the second day we interview

he ask us go kuantan for take a walk and see his company group there...

WOW!!!that time we are too innocent and belived what he promise us..

and we just follow...when iam think back now...

i feel we are stupid and no brain at all...we are too young too been cheated by him...

then we just follow what he ask us to do in his stupid company..

and iam the leader for seremban,kl and melaka...also a supervisor for that company..

he ask me do anything he want me to do in everytime in morning or night!!

but!!!i want to mention that i was do for no basic...and do free for him...

HOW FOOL ARE ME!!!!!!!NO BRAIN AT ALL!!

what he tell me is got sale only got payment...

but i have to do many thing for him include recruit people and plan for the company!!

eventhought at night he will call us and go kuantan!!

JUST IMAGINED!!from KL TO KUANTAN!!!!

HOW FAR THE DISTANCE!!!!!!!AT NIGHT!!!!

also want us rush to kuantan!!!but without any extra payment for that!!

and like my 24 hour is belong to him!!!

not me only!!!got a guy name seelan also use by him...

actually he is staying in kl!!but jason ask him stay in kuantan and do sell there..

same as me...do free for him...

NO BASIC!!24 HOUR BELONG TO HIM!!

bout den after seelan doing his job in kuantan for 4 month...

seelan tell us that jason own him money about two thousand above!!

WHAT?????and jason delay and delay!!!!

after few month the same thing was happened on us!!!

he always delay!!!and my seremban group ask me about that!!

as a supervisor and a leader i have to responsibility for that!

and i ask for jason!!and what he tell me is he dint get any sell from seremban group!!

HUH?????????WHAT????

if compare with kl group,seremban group sell is better than kl group for many2 time what...

and we pass all the celcom form to him in hand with sorrounding many people can be proved...

many poeple see it when iam pass to jason that night!!!

and after that him JASON as a NO RESPONSIBILITY BOSS

tell us that he forgot already and already pass all the form to others

and no record and say that that was not his problem...

WHAT THE EXCUSE??????

lucky iam do record for all the form....and he cant do anything..

and he have to pay the payment!!!!

AT LAST HE PAY!!!!!

and when i want give the payment to my seremban group...

and jason ask me dunt want pay them first!!because got simcard in leader of seremban!!

and have to wait until he pass all the sim card to jason first..

then only want me pass the payment to them...

and jason also mention that if seremban group ask...he say he will settle..

i only wait for his order to pay the payment that time...

and then my seremban group leader call me for the payment..

and i ask them call jason for settle!!bout then he tell seremban group that

he dont know this thing and ask them to settle with me!!!!!!!

WHAT????AT LAST!!!i been scold by seremban group!!!!

then i straight bank in the payment to seremban group without jason order..

because iam not put heart into what is happening...

and after i call jason and ask for what is happening...

and he tell me that the payment that he ask me dunt want give seremban group

and he say he cant tell them..because his this crab say that he scared his

why got the boss like this???

because of his imej he put all the blame on me....

such a responsibility CRAB!!!

from that time on...iam started no patient!!!and on the same time we also wait for our

payment that he own us!!!he make our life like in hell

no money and we all always take money from our parent because of him...

and i say i want to quick from that job...

but he ask me to continue!!!dunt stop!!!

and then the most unhappy thing is he cant expect joseph and other!!

he say he cant belived them!!!!and ask me to help him!!

because he promise that he will give us our payment on time..

i no patient already!!!because i ask many time for our payment..

what only he do is delay and delay and got many many many excuse...

hem~~~until 1 day....i say i want stop working with him and want our payment straightly..

because he is too over already!!!if normal people they will

sue him because of delay payment for 3 month!!!!!!!

and then he ask us go kuantan take from him!!!

OK!!!I GO!!!!!

In the night we rush and go kuantan!!!!and i leave all my music practise

and my time table all mess up beacause of him.....

and then after we reach there!!!!

and jason ask us stay in kuantan that day in his hostel there!!!

but that is not a hostel!!!!!because~~~the hostel

want us stay there????eventhought other worker also no dare to stay there...

OH MY GOD!!!somemore i got more important thing to do in kl....

i have to back as soon as possible..but he treat our time like his time...

and when joseph want go church in sunday...

he just scold joseph...and say that he worked with him....HE IS BOSS!!

he tot everybody have to follow his time in 24 hour...

HE DINT PAY US PAYMENT AND WANT US DO LIKE FOOL!!

he tot us what????ROBOT????

and then that time i ask him to settle with us immediated

because this is what his promise to us to settle on that day....

i almost crazy that time...i pull all my time table that i already arrange away and just want

settle all the payment and quick from the company...but he treat us like that!!!

that day i fight for our salary...he say me no manness!!!

until i cry that day!!!not only me complain about him..

eventhought his company people who worked with him want to sue him

and then at last he ask us take bus back to kl ourself!!!

such a CRAB!!!

no systematic at all....

the second lesson for me in this year!!

from now on i wont belive anybody anymore beside my family

and then after 1 week i heard that jason call joseph dad and complain about me!!

before this he talk bad about joseph at me and to his dad..

but now he talk bad about me to joseph dad...

because iam fight for our salary!!

i cry and cry and cry!!!i dint do wrong!!!

i just do the job as what he ask me to do..and i just do

the job as leader have to do...

if not i already run away...coz i got more bright future...

can earn money more then in SMART NETWORK MARKETING

but why i have to rush him...because i got that responsibility...

and now i heard that from his dad that because of me joseph dint go back home

dint continue his study!!!!

HUH????from very early i already advice joseph go study and i also take form for him..

ask him choice a course and study futher...coz this is what his parent hope..

and this is also a basic for life

aaron and jeffrey also know...i already advice him for how many month...

but also no use...because what he tell me is...when he want study

his dad ask him dunt take the course that he like..

when he dunt want study his dad ask him have to study...

actully!!!iam always ask myself IS IT MY PROBLEM????

i also ask joseph...he say not....because the problem already start

before he know me...and he dunt want to waste his parent money...

he want earn money first and then only go study...but he tell me that his parent

dint belive him...until he cry when he grievances to me..

he say that from small his dad not belive him and scold him..

so that from secondary school he dunt want to heard to anybody..

i ask him peacfully talk to his dad..but what he tell me is no use

hai~~~i already hard to talk to joseph sometime...

what i hope now he will settle up with his dad peacfully...

iam only a third partner...no use to comment anything..

and 1 more thing that i unhappy is his dad say i make joseph always dint back home..

actually joseph alreday tell me why he dunt want back him..

eventhought i ask him stay at his home...if not his parent will unhappy...

but he dunt want heard eventhought advice for many time...

actually what i know is not he dunt want back home..

he tell me before...he love his family very much,but his dad give him many depress..

and the way his that talk to him..

actually what in my mind is...actually this is the problem between

dad and son

they have to face to face talk with each other...

if not they wont understand each other always..

like a movie"xiao hai bu ben"..singapore movie...

they are in the same situation...if not settle face to face...

the problem will still have forever...third party cant do anything..

atleast they settle their self!!

lucky i got understanding parent...no them no me...

espeacialy my mom...i love her so much...

all my success result is she teach me from A to Z..

he teach me to face the real world...not run from it...

she want me taste the real world myself then i can learn it from wrong...

and she always give me advice in life road...

eventhought iam do wrong in life,she will treat me like friend and teach me

　

success done 7 cases and almost reach target

am happy with it and hope bless me tomorrow can get more

eventhought today is tired but is a day that have to be happy

but this few day after ia working in this carear
i found something that i have to realize something

that is a thing that got better then dint got

that is BOYFRIEND

WHY I SAY LIKE THIS?

because boyfriend is no use...

eventhougt he treat u good..but doesnt mean he is good..

what i mean is i ad fade up with him

especially his attitude...

the normal time i cant tell somebody what i want to say

but here is a place that i can pull out everything i like..yea is a good place for me..

what 1 of my friend say his real...he is my best friend..

In 100 guysssss...u only can belive them only in 0.01%

erm..he treat me very very good actually....but so phoney

sometime i dunt know how to belive him

ESPECIALLY THE WAY!!!THE WAY!!!

all my friend say..if u love him then dunt ask..and keep going love him

but this doesnt mean my thingking are stopping thinking about his phoney

i feel like in a movie that he juz act that love me..

everybody say iam think too much..

but i see something that u all cant c...

he dint tell me and i can feel it always...

eventhought his activity in facebook or other..

Actually now i got more choice beside then him..

they are handsome,rich,attitude better then him..

up up dowm dowm all sight also better then him..

they are takkleING me now...

all my friend say:"why dunt choice other if u hard to belive him?'

but how??i cant do it...i love him...

and i really really got the wish that to leave him so that i can be single and happy..

but he dunt want to let me go

actually he is a strong christian...i like his thingking about life..

but i hated him with his thinking about something..

i hated him in million thing that i cant accept...

actually he got got qualify to find other..why he dunt want let me go..WHY???

i feel hard and double dounble double unhappy about it...

really unhappy...my life become no meaning..

that most thing that make me unhappy and sad is

I DUNT KNOW WHAT IS IN HIS MIND...

this is the most important point that i dunt belive him

i really really feel tired with him...

some of the people say becoz iam too love him then make me like this...

maybe...i agree..but i cant with him anymore..

coz i love him more then he love me...

but what he argue to me that..he love me more then i love him..

actually is wrong ..IS ME..

i think i want give up for this realtionship..

hope he accept...but i will slowly tryING make him give up me..

i really tired...and I love him..

REally love him from deep inside my heart...